Thursday, 6 July 2017

Canada 150!!!

Don't let the frown fool you, he had a good time, he was just pretending to be sad. In fact he wanted my camera and because I wouldn't let him have it he decided to put out the big lip!!

Canada is now 150 years old! That's a pretty significant event especially if you consider that our first 150 years have been fairly peaceful, there haven't been a lot of wars fought on Canadian soil or disputes about Canadian borders.  I don't know if there are many countries in the world who can make that claim.
Canada is celebrating our 150 in a variety of ways, free park passes, free library cards (thank you RDPL!!), big fireworks on Canada day, and many more.  I am happy to partake in them all. Canada is a wonderful country and I am so happy to call this place home! I look forward to the next 50 years of Canada being a shining example of what the world should strive for, even if we forget parts of our country every now and then (I'm looking at you Mr. Prime Minister).  

Happy Canada Day (I know it's late), but have a great 150th birthday year and may our celebration lead us into being a world leader in how it is done!


Wednesday, 5 July 2017

Field Trip Reflection

We did four big field trips in June with the class. June is such a hard month because most students have checked out of school by the first so we didn't want to do anything too taxing on them.  So we booked a lot of field trips to let the students enjoy some amazing locations within a half an hour drive of the school.
The first place we took the kids to was the Thuluum Tulip Farm just east of Red Deer.  It was a very neat experience and the owners were amazing! I was so happy we got to go and the students all seemed to really like this trip.  It became the benchmark to which all other field trips would be measured.
 The next trip we went on was a walking tour around Red Deer. We visited 10 statues that were erected to show the history of Red Deer.  The statue above is Mr. Mann who conducted the Red Deer Royals and a few of our students had known him. This was a long day of walking but the kids did great and we had a lot of fun at the spray park during lunch!
 The next trip was out to LGBarnes camp, which is a camp for people with disabilities.  The kids were able to participate in a variety of activities like swimming, tractor ride, scavenger hunt and slushies.  It was a good day, I love going out to this camp and I think it got some of the students thinking about possibly coming out in the summer on their own to camp for a week or so.
 The last field trip was another walking tour, we went to Kerry Wood Nature Center and to McKenzie trails, the kids had a blast.   I took a group on the long walk around the Gaetz Lakes, the students were awesome.  I am happy we got to end our year this way, instead of doing a bunch of review and tests!!



Tuesday, 4 July 2017

End of the School Year



 I work with two very different groups of kids, but I am fond of each of them for different reasons.

One reason I love working with these kids is that they always keep me on my toes.  The first group each student is vastly different but they find small joys in places where I have forgotten to look.  They often need more help navigating the social regulations of society, but more often than not they are more accepting of each other's differences. A lot could be learned by watching them accept people for who they are and not what they can do. This group of kids will often scare other teachers because they "don't know what to do with them", but that for me is thinking too globally, get to know them, form a relationship with them and you will see that what you need to do isn't really all that different than what you are already doing.

The second group gives me faith that not all millenials are lazy.  This group is hard working and has a lot of drive to get things done.  They want to make the world (right now it's Thurber) a better place, but I know that when they leave high school they are going to make the world an amazing place.  Sometimes they need a little help navigating how to sell what they are doing, but for the most part I get to sit back and watch magic happen when I work with these kids.

It's been a hard year in a lot of ways, but I have cherished every moment and look forward to many more years learning and growing with all my kids!

Wednesday, 14 June 2017

Grad 2017

Oh the Places They will Go!
Twelve years ago these same students walked in front of their parents at a Kindergarten Grad Ceremony, celebrating that they learned their ABCs, their numbers to 10 and how to share and care for one another.  After a lot of hard work, social structuring in their peer groups, this group of students gets to say that they graduated, they put in the work and they are about to leave high school behind them.

 Never again in their life will they feel a triumph like this (unless of course they go to become a doctor and do another 12 years of schooling in a row).  This is a time in their life that they can look back on and know they made it, they are on the precipices of adulthood.  Those carefree days of no bills, no responsibilities are falling behind them faster than they realize.
 But it's not all bad, a plethora of opportunities is opening before them.  They have the first piece of paper they need to move forward in the rest of their life.  This grade 12 diploma indicates that they are of a character that sticks with something, they work hard, they try hard, they are working for their goals.  They can join the workforce, go to college, university, apprenticeship programs or just travel the world.  Many in 2017 are driven to continue to school, some are driven to join a field of work that has more on the job training then school training, some just want a break because high school for them wasn't what it was for their peers.
 But they did and now the world lays at their feet and the adults in their life take a deep breath in to see what they will do.  The world is watching and waiting to celebrate your successes, commiserate with your failures and set you back up so you can move forward in the direction of your dreams!  To the class of 2017 Go to all the places you want to Go, Enjoy every minute and don't rush things through because before you know it you will be celebrating your 20th high school reunion like I am this year!

Tuesday, 13 June 2017

Happy Birthday Dad!

Love Style's posted this video on Facebook the other day and I had to share it because it is so very true!

When my father passed away I tried so hard to get through my grief, to get to the other side.  And honestly I'd think I had gotten there and then I'd be slapped in the face with a new version of that same grief. How could my life be so "normal" when the ever large and loving presence of my father wasn't there? Sometimes those new versions of grief were harder to deal with than the initial grief.

And so I'd start to accept that my dad was gone, that my children would learn of my father through my stories, my photos and my family but not through meeting him.  That I'd be an orphan at 30 because my father was gone and no one could replace him.  That I would have to keep him tucked in my heart and take his lessons of love and family and make them apart of me to ensure his legacy endured.

Grief becomes apart of you, and how you respond to that grief is your own to control.  I didn't let my grief swallow me, but instead I let my grief lead me to a new way of honouring my lost loved ones through my actions with my loved ones that walk this journey of life with me.

So Happy Birthday Dad, I know you are watching down on my, sometimes probably cursing and stomping your feet because I'm not doing it the right way, but knowing that I will get it right for my family and I that I am always making you proud!

Love you!!!

Monday, 12 June 2017

Goodlife Fitness

So Red Deer had a new gym open on Thursday and I joined.  I honestly joined back in March and have been impatiently waiting for it to open and now it is open and I am so happy.

I went to the Grand Opening on Thursday night.  The place is huge, it's the largest facility in western Canada for Goodlife.  I have now been there every day since it's opened, I am concerned I am turning into a gym rat!! There is so much to do, so many classes to take and so many machines to work out on.

My favourite class is Body Pump, I have done a class like this before when I lived in Saskatoon and I am feeling exactly like I did back then a day later.  Sore, and sore and strong.  I don't like doing weight training that is simply me doing three sets of 15 for different muscle areas that gets boring. I love doing weight training in class settings, I'm more focused and because there are other people around I push myself harder.  There are definitely some muscles I have not worked in a long TIME because they are super sore!

After workouts I am constantly treating myself to a quick massage in the massage chairs.  I love those things!! Watch for a picture blog to come soon of my workouts and things!!

Monday, 5 June 2017

Full time teaching contract

I am beyond excited to announce that I will be a full time, continuing contract teacher starting in August!! It's been a long road, but I've finally found that teaching assignment that was made for me!! So here is to many more years of working with kids that need the most assistance but fill your heart so much with every triumph and smile!!

I'm beyond blessed to have these students in my life!!

Monday, 29 May 2017

Prince T turned 3

 My littlest turned three just a little while ago, and I am at a loss for words to describe how I feel about this.  I can't believe my last baby is three, and he's becoming a threenager for sure.  But he's still super sweet at times but is definitely figuring out where he fits in this world.
 Prince T and spend the day together, just the two of us. After getting his brother off to school Prince T and I went for a play date then we hit up the library to get some books. Prince T is in the challenge to read 1000 books by the time he's five, so we have some reading to do ahead. He loves to read and insists on reading the book we just read to us after each reading.
 Sometimes Prince T will even indulge me in a selfie, sometimes he's even willing to smile!

After a lunch at Macdonald's (his choice) we headed to pick up his big brother from school.  Then we headed to the park to play for a little while.
 His big brother loves Prince T, and 50% of the time Prince T returns that love, but his brother is full of love and sometimes it's just too much and the boys are scrapping.  I only had one brother but it seems like it is probably pretty normal behaviour!

 At three Prince T is able to zip around on his strider, he can even peddle his trike, he's walking, running, galloping and skipping.  He is very determined to get his way and it isn't unusual to have a melt down when we say no popsicles for supper.  He loves to read, he won't say water, instead he says l'eau.  He loves Paw Patrol and super heroes.  He would much rather be outside all day then inside.
 Prince T is happy, he's healthy and he brings limitless joy to his family! May his personality continue to grow and be nurtured so he becomes the boy he's supposed to be!

Friday, 26 May 2017

Friday Five: Yoga poses to master

I have been doing yoga pretty consistently for the last few months.  I am a huge fan of Yoga with Adrienne, but I am determined to master a few yoga poses by the end of the summer.

1. Sitting Pigeon: I love the stretch I get with this pose, but the balance and core strength you need to ensure you are doing it properly, well I have a long way to go.

2. Downward Facing Dog: I am constantly in this pose in my practice but my heels do not touch the ground so that is what I want to get better at.

3.Tree Pose: This is an amazing balancing pose that I really want to get better at, usually I am just hovering my toes off the ground and on a good day I can get them to my shin so I'd love to get them to my thigh.

4. Warrior two: I love this pose but feel a bit week in the legs when I am trying to sustain this pose.

5. Warrior three: Yeah this isn't a pose I can do with any kind of success yet, so definitely have to work on this one!



Thursday, 25 May 2017

When will things change

So this post is going to be a bit deeper than some of my past posts, as I am really curious, when will humans stop repeating mistakes of the past or is that just how things are going to be?

I grew up in a time before social media (Thank God) but we were no less able to get the word around than people are now.  Folded notes, telephone conversations meeting in the smoke pit, if something was going down in a school we knew about it.  And when I was growing up it was always some group against the next. The preps versus the jocks, yeah these were painfully pathetic fights, the skids against pot heads, not the most interesting fights either, girl fights, probably the most stealthy fights, people didn't know what was happening until it had happened. But it was always one social group against the next and it is still happening today.

Now those the groups seem to garner a more political feel, some feel it's the Christians versus the Muslims (UMM hellooo Crusades...) or maybe it's just the immigrants versus the Canadians (again ummm hello colonization).  But things get so blown out of proportion because of social media and people not being fully informed.

Here is a scenario for you think back to when you were in high school, and there was a big fight somewhere on school grounds, you aren't friends with anyone involved but you've heard about the fight, maybe you've even seen some shakey camera video, hell maybe you were the person involved.  Now be honest, did you ever know the specifics about the punishment that was handed out to the people in the fight? If it was you did you know what the other person got as a punishment? Now if I reflect on these questions the answer to both is no, I never knew the specifics, and I never cared either.

The truth is fair isn't always equal, and equal is never fair.  But you have to trust that the adults are going to take care of things, they are going to handle things fairly and justly and to just say, in today's hyper social media age, that anyone is trying to just sweep things under the rug is ludicrous.  It's not like things can stay hidden for long, but the worst thing that ALWAYS happens now is that people start saying an authority is trying to hide something and that snowballs into a huge mess that never should have been in the first place.

We all know how the fishing story goes.  Person was out fishing and the come back all excited.  The first friend they tell is that they caught so many fish but all had to go back (this is probably the closest to the truth).  Next person they tell they caught so many fish and all had to go back but one except that one flopped off the boat.  Third person the tale gets a bit more elaborate, by the tenth person the fish was the size of a narwhale and dragged the person around the lake for ten days before the line snapped and person came home.  It may not even be the original person to tell the tale that many time but with each telling things get a little more descriptive or a few more details to spice up the story.  The final story has nothing to do with the truth and often just riles people up to go fishing to catch the monster fish.

So will things change or do we have to do some more educating on how to appropriately use social media so school yard fights don't get turned into political platform agendas??

Wednesday, 24 May 2017

Photography

Photos, and photography, are a passion of mine.  From the time I was really little I have loved looking at photos, having my photo taken and taking pictures.  If you know me in real life this is something that you are probably saying yeah no kidding.  If you are a regular reader of this blog you will know that this is true, but it's always been a hobby, something to do to catch those moments.  Now I am really interested in taking it to something else, a semi-professional hobby let's say.

I have been taking photos since I was 12, I got my first camera at that age and then since then I've always had a camera of some sort.  So I know how to point and shoot, but my new camera has all kinds of new options, I can control shutter speed, I can control Apeture I can use presets and I get all these amazingly different photos.  Not all of them are great, but I would bet anything no photographer takes amazing pictures with every shot!

So my plan this summer is to teach myself photography and how to use my camera.  The idea is if I can get really good at using my point and shoot then I can upgrade that camera to a camera that has interchangeable lenses.  And then I can further expand my photography skills.

See I love photos, I love taking photos, but I would never have the patience to be a studio photographer, or a photographer that sets up the shot.  However, I am going to start building a portfolio of pictures that I would be willing to do for others.  These photos would be in a real life situation.  You are taking your kids to the park and you want to capture their playing, fighting, joy and tears.  You are having a birthday party and want photos of the goings on but because it's your kid you don't have time to take all the photos.  Those real life times when you want to be present with your kids but wish someone was being a paparazzi of your family.  That's the photography I want to do.  My photography is Jenn's Real Life Photography and here are a couple of my first shots.

Yes I have edited them, just to give them an extra pop, but my first set of photos are the photos I took on T's third birthday!




Tuesday, 23 May 2017

Athleisure Looks for Spring

I am not always up on the best looks for the spring, nor have I ever been accused of being a trend setter for fashion seasons.  But as I mature, I find there is a certain je ne sais quoi about having good fitting and matching outfits for all occasions.  But sometimes being fashionable can be costly so it's important to know where you can go to find good fitting clothes that aren't going to break your budget.

I love finding websites that fit my needs, being a larger female sometimes these online sites do nothing to help me find clothes that I can wear.  I mean I cannot even begin to tell you how often I have ordered a large for it to come and I am thinking, "wow this is a large for a toddler!" So the other day I came across the website Adore Me, you fill in a quiz and they build you a showroom of clothes and looks for your preference!! It's a NYC based company and the head designer used to work for Victoria Secret!! I am thrilled to be finding some new looks for my spring wardrobe!

I have three looks I want for this spring, my lounging by the campfire look would be a nice t-shirt PJ look.  This outfit from Adore Me is perfect for those nights just lounging with friends as the days get longer and our nights get shorter.

So not maybe an athleisure look, but if you've ever been around a campfire with small children you will totally understand my choice!

The next look I am choosing is for my running or biking, somedays it's too cold to wear my summer outfits and by the afternoon it's too hot to wear the cold weather outfits I've had in between.  I am in need of a light weight jogging suit and this one looks perfect!!

I've really hit my yoga kick lately and finding a great outfit to be able to do my yoga in is somewhat of a challenge.  If the shirts are too baggy they fall around my face, since my surgery I haven't had many bras that I could just wear and workout in without a top so I have been shopping around, and this outfit fits exactly that bill!!

So if you are in the market for some new Athleisure Wear  for the spring make sure to check out Adore Me!!


Monday, 8 May 2017

Riverdale Episode 11 Recap

It's HOMECOMING!!!

A time of celebration, a time to remember days gone by.  Mary Andrews comes home to see Archie, things are looking up for Hiram Lodge and there may be some leniency in his case.  FP seems to be getting things back under control, he eve read Jughead's manuscript.  Are things about to start getting better even though Jason's murder is still unsolved?

Veronica is not into continuing her moments with Archie, but she is interested in getting to the bottom of the Jason's murder. Betty however, is not interested in finding out if FP has anything to do with Jason's murder because she has already been there and knows that FP told Jughead he had nothing to do with it.  Veronica teams up with Alice Cooper and enlists Archie to find out the truth about FP and whether or not he had anything to do with the death of Jason Blossom.

Polly is on a mission to discover what the Blossom's are hiding.  She has been exploring the mansion and feels that there is something hidden in the Blossom's master bedroom that will lead her to knowing that they had something to do with Jason's death. She even agrees to be homecoming co-queen with Cheryl the night of homecoming hoping to distract Cheryl from what she is doing.

Alice invites Jughead and FP over for supper as a way to keep them from FP's trailer so that Veronica and Archie can search it for any clues that would tie FP to Jason's murder.  Betty is non too pleased with Alice's antics but agrees to attend dinner. Alice makes the dinner some what awkward by grilling FP on his past and present endeavours, you would think she was a lawyer and not a reporter.  Veronica and Archie find nothing in FP's trailer, nothing to link him to the murder, but it causes a break down in the relationship between Jughead and his friends because they did this behind both Betty and Jughead's backs.  Betty tries to let Jughead know she had no idea that Veronica and Archie were conspiring to search FP's trailer but Jughead is too hurt to believe her.

Cheryl and Polly continue to bond over homecoming, and then they go to explore the Blossom's master bedroom together.  In this exploration they find the antique engagement ring that Jason had on him the night he was murdered.  How did it end up in the jewelry box?  Mrs. Blossom claims that Jason threw the ring in Cliff's face when he denounced his involvement in the Blossom Family business.  Polly then finishes her milkshake, but it's been laced with sleeping pills and Polly misses the dance.

At the dance Betty figures out what Veronica and Archie have been up to.  She is upset but again not as upset as Jughead.

Some one tipped off Sheriff Keller and he goes to search FP's trailer.  What he finds leads to the arrest of FP for the murder of Jason Blossom. News reaches the high school and Jughead takes off to figure out what happened.   The rest of the teens really have to process what FP's arrest means for each of them. Will he implicate Hiram Lodge and bring down Lodge Industries?  Will Jughead spiral out of control? How will Mrs. Blossom cope now that FP has been arrested?

Thursday, 4 May 2017

Riverdale Episode 10 Recap

The Andrews: Fred decides to head to Chicago to finalize his divorce with Mary.  Archie wants his dad to maybe reconsider the divorce, but Fred insists he stays home, so Archie and Jughead are home alone.   Archie gets decidedly drunk the night of Jughead's birthday, calls his dad but doesn't say anything.

The Coopers: Betty tries to be good girlfriend and plan a surprise for Jughead's birthday as well as a birthday party.  Betty and Veronica are all in for a quaint gathering at Archie's house, Archie acquiesces because he knows better than to argue.  Chuck Clayton returns to school and sits with Ethel, it cause Betty to see red, but he was only trying to apologize.   Chuck calls out Betty for what she did the night at Ethel's.  Jughead leaps to Betty's defense and punches Chuck straight in the jaw.

The Joneses: It's Jughead's birthday and Betty and Jughead are going to the Bijou to see the double feature.  Betty and Jughead got out to the movies but head early to meet up with Archie and his friends.  That is when the masses crash and then FP Jones shows up to wish Jughead a happy birthday.  Jughead is quite upset that Betty through a party for him, showing that Betty and him are so very different that they shouldn't even be together.  Things start to look pretty rocky for Jughead and Betty. It's a good thing FP showed up at Jughead's party to break up the fight that breaks out, the he has a run in with Alice Cooper. Seems Alice Cooper used to be part of the Southside of Riverdale, but clawed her way into to upper middle class.

The Lodges: Hiram's attorney is in Riverdale looking for character testimonies from Hermoine and Veronica. Veronica and Archie have a few close encounters and even spend the night together.  Veronica gets called out by Cheryl for being a destroyer of lives just like her father.  But is that really what her intentions are?  Veronica then testifies for her father.

The Blossoms: Why is Clifford possibly the reason for why Hiram is in jail?  Cheryl decides the Betty and Veronica and Archie all need to pay for what they have done and gets together with Chuck to crash Jughead's birthday party.  Cheryl fulfills her life ambition to cause chaos wherever she goes so that people know that she is in charge.

Wednesday, 3 May 2017

Riverdale Episode 9 Recap

We finally get a look inside Thorn Hill and learn a little more about the Blossom family.  And the Blossoms are into Maple Syrup, it's everywhere in the town.  What will happen to the Blossom Family business now that Jason is dead?

So many questions and so few answers, and really is maple syrup that much of a lucrative business or is there more to this story?

Betty just wants to know why Polly isn't talking to her, Alice just wants to paint the Blossoms as a horrible family. Betty learns from Archie that Polly is fine but Betty finds it hard to believe that Polly won't even talk to her.  When that doesn't satisfy her curosity she approaches Cheryl, who is less than helpful. Alice loses her patience with Hank and hurls a brick through the door of his shop.

Veronica and Hermoine are dealing with the fact that Hiram Lodge knows that Hermoine has had a tryst with Fred Andrews, but Fred Andrews still does not know that Lodge Industry is his new boss. Veronica also reaches out to Ethel again and puts on her nice girl cap.  It was always true in the comics that Veronica could be really nice but sometimes she was evil, seems the show wants Veronica to take on the nice rich girl role.  I enjoy it, but I really like to see Veronica as a mean girl to those that need it (ie. Cheryl).  Veronica then learns that Ethel's troubles came because they invested with Hiram Lodge, Veronica now sees the hazards of investing.  Hermoine comes clean with Fred which ends their budding romance and leaves them just as partners.  Ethel's dad then attempts to commit suicide, Veronica admits to Ethel's mom who she is and apologizes for what her father did, Ethel's mom loses it on Veronica but Betty stays close and supports her friend.

Cheryl has to attend her annual family event of the tapping of the maple tree.  She hooks Archie into joining her.  Because Archie is usually a hapless sap, he goes along but it costs him.  Archie tries to convince Cheryl to ask someone else, but Archie gives in because he's naive and wants to be the nice guy. But is he really the nice guy or is he doing this to get ahead, since he finally agrees to attend after Mrs. Blossom says she will put in a good word with an influential music program if Archie agrees to go.  The tree tapping is a big to do with all the Board of Trustees coming to see the tree tapping, scroll reading and all.....seems a bit pretentious! Archie does talk to Polly but gets no answers. Archie attempts to negotiate a deal between the Blossoms and Andrews so that Fred's company doesn't go under, Cliff Blossom seems to be willing to talk but is it a ruse? Archie then attends another function with Cheryl and it causes Archie and Valerie to break up.  Archie doesn't realize his integrity is at stake.  When Archie finally wakes up, learning that the Blossoms had something to do with Hiram Lodge's arrest and that Polly believes that the Blossoms had something to do with Jason's death, Archie walks away.



Tuesday, 2 May 2017

Riverdale Episode 8 Recap

Is there really such a thing as a perfect family?  Can the golden couple from high school grow into the shining example of the what makes a family perfect?

Jughead tells us as the narrator that the Coopers were high school sweethearts.  They had two beautiful girls and wonderful careers and the perfect life. That is until they get shoved into their own Romeo and Juliet story, when Polly and Jason fall irrevocably in love.  These two star crossed lovers met by chance, even had a nasty, short lived break up. But when Polly found out she was pregnant, Jason and Polly got engaged with his grandmothers ring, and planned to run away together.  Which all ended tragically with Jason's death and Polly being locked away by her own parents.

How and can the golden family of Riverdale ever get back together?

Veronica thinks so.  She feels that by throwing a Baby shower for Polly and inviting the Coopers and Blossoms, maybe this old feud can finally be put to rest for the benefit of the  baby that Polly is carrying.  It's a big Lodge to do, but the Blossoms do not let that stop them from making an entrance.  Alice desperately wants Polly to come home, she doesn't understand why Polly doesn't want to return to her family home.  Mr. Cooper absolutely refuses to partake in any of this as he will have nothing to do at all with anyone or thing related to the Blossoms.

Seems that the Blossoms are now causing trouble for Andrew's Construction.  The crew Fred had ready to start the project backed out because Blossom made an offer they couldn't refuse.  But it is putting Fred in a tight spot, looks like the business is going under and there isn't anything Fred can do.  Fred finally tells Archie what's happening and Archie works to help his dad find a solution.  The solution is that Archie and his friends come out to help, except someone comes and starts breaking equipment and even attacks Moose!!  But who is behind it, the Blossoms, the Southside Serpents, the Lodges??

Archie, Moose and Kevin head to a Serpent Bar to find out if they were behind it. Moose thinks he may have seen some and Archie approaches the guy, pretty heated, almost starting a bar fight.  In walks FP, which is when Archie finds out that Juggie's dad is a Serpent. Did I mention that FP has Kevin's boyfriend hide Jason's jacket. Yeah that happened but does FP have something to do with Jason's death?? And Kevin's boyfriend is using Kevin as an in on information with the sheriff.  FP then brings a crew to work the new project, Fred agrees and Hermoine and FP discuss who was behind the attack. Turns out they were likely from Montreal, and connected to Hiram Lodge, and were sent to send more of a message to Hermoine than to Fred.

We find out that Mr. Cooper is absolutely against having a Blossom baby in his house.  That he even offered to pay for an abortion so that Polly wouldn't have to live with her mistake. Seems this wasn't the first time and Mrs. Cooper kicked him out, because having her daughter home was more important than continuing with some ridiculous feud.

Polly makes a choice, even though Alice did everything to get her to come home, Polly still chooses to live at the Blossom's estate.  What is going on with that girl?

Monday, 1 May 2017

Riverdale Episode 7

How are you guys enjoying Riverdale?  It's definitely not the Archie Comic Universe I grew up with but I am really not mad at it.  I am very anxious to see Mrs. Andrews and I would really like to see Jellybean and Mrs. Jones, but for now they are just mentioned characters.

Well let's get started with Episode 7!

So Juggie is living in squalor and know one knows. His dad is not only a Southside Serpent, he's also an alcoholic who has chosen the bottle over his family time and time again.  Juggie works really hard keeping his secret but he gets busted by Archie and finally comes clean with his problems to Archie. Even admitting that since his dad lost his job at Andrew's Construction it's been extra tough at home. Archie and Juggie then join forces to help FP get his job back with Andrew's Construction.  Juggie confronts his dad on his alcoholism and the fact that it is his drinking that is destroying their family.

FP and Fred Andrews make amends and FP starts back at work. But it's not all rainbows and flowers, FP still has to deal with his addiction issue and the fact that he is part of the Southside Serpents, which makes Hermoine Lodge uncomfortable.

Veronica is resorting to old tactics to get back at her mom for kissing Fred Andrews and betraying Mr. Lodge. Veronica has started shopping online to relieve her stress. Veronica then goes out on the town with her friends, drinking and dancing ensue.  Her credit card gets cancelled and reported stolen by Hermoine, Veronica has cash and talks out of getting in trouble since the club served alcohol to minors.  At tis point it becomes a draw and Veronica and Hermoine finally talk and come to an argeement on what to do.

Betty and Juggie are also involved with finding Polly.  Cheryl tweets out that Polly escaped from a mental hospital and killed Jason.  The race is on to find Polly.  Many, many rumours come out about what Polly may or may not have done, forcing Mrs. Cooper to make an announcement that Polly is pregnant with Jason's baby.  This creates an uneasy alliance between Betty and Cheryl as they both want Polly to be safe to keep the baby safe.  In the end Betty finds Polly by remember where Polly used to run away to when she was upset at her parents.

The uneasy truce between Betty and Cheryl is being built to do what is best for Polly.  Betty meets with the Blossom's to negotiate Polly's safety.  The Blossom's aren't looking out for the best interest of Polly, but for the baby, with plans to take the child from Polly and have her declared unfit. Cheryl warns Betty and Polly who leave before mom and dad Blossom show up, in steps Veronica and saves the day providing Polly with a safe place to stay while her family figures out what it is they all want to do.

But things aren't over for Juggie.  He gets taken in for questioning because of some questionable incidents in his past. As he sits in a cell waiting for his dad, Betty, Archie and Fred Andrews come to his rescue, providing an alibi for Juggie for the week Jason was suspected to have been killed.  FP is no where to be found and when he comes around he is completely inebriated.  Juggie has to make a choice between the Andrew's and his dad, Juggie chooses his dad, but FP gives him permission to stay with the Andrews, maybe one of the only selfless acts he makes.



Tuesday, 25 April 2017

Riverdale Episode 6

What are you afraid of? Failing in front of people, being too much for other, hurting others, the dark?? Well this episode of Riverdale's theme is around Fear and how it is important to face your fears.

Jughead and Betty are getting closer this episode.  Jughead comes over for breakfast and aids Betty in spying on her mom and dad.  The spying pays off and Jughead and Betty discover where Polly is, so they head off to find her and find out what's happening.  Polly is in a home for disenfranchised youth and when Betty finds her, we discover that Polly is pregnant with Jason's baby.  Polly tells Betty about her and Jason's plan to run away to have the baby together and that is when Betty realizes that Polly didn't know about Jason's murder.  Betty's mom shows up and is very unimpressed with Betty being here, but Polly is absolutely distraught that Jason is dead.  In the end Polly goes missing and everyone starts to wonder if maybe Polly was the one who killed Jason.

After coming home, Betty confronts her dad about the possibility that he killed Jason Blossom.  Alice Cooper thinks this is the funniest thing since sliced bread.  Alice then accuses Betty of being crazy, seems this family has a go to that shaming people into thinking they are crazy is a way to control them.  Betty doesn't let up and with Jughead's help they discover that Polly was telling the truth, they find Jason's car where Polly said it would be, loaded with Jason's things and drugs!! What was Jason into?

Archie is trying out for the Variety Show, but he develops a case of stage fright where all his Football Buddies jeer him and turn into wolves.  Then Archie gives into his fears and doesn't try out.  Thankfully, he has some great friends who believe in him and go to bat for him getting him a spot in the Variety Show.  Veronica even agrees to sing with Archie to help him overcome his stage fright. Valerie agrees to sing with Archie, but in the end neither girl sings with Archie and Archie faces his fears and sings alone. He does an amazing job!

There are troubles in the PussyCat's world and Valerie ends up quitting the band.  Valerie and Josie have a fight about creative differences and doing things outside the Pussycat's.  Valerie wants more time, but Josie is afraid because Valerie is the song writer of the Pussycat's.  Josie's mom, turns out she is very demanding that Josie do things the way she wants more than the way Josie may want to keep her brand recognition. Josie is stressing out about her dad showing up at the Variety Show, she really wants to impress him with her talents, but it seems that Josie's dad is less than impressed with Josie's brand. Valerie re-joins the Pussycats the night of the talent show, but their song does little to impress Josie's dad.  Josie is devastated, but she has her band back.

Veronica has to deal with two betrayals, her mom and Fred Andrews starting a relationship, and Archie replacing her with Valerie after Valerie quit the Pussycats and decided to sing with Archie.  Veronica then becomes the new Pussycat and the girl can actually sing, her dancing feels a little hesitant.  Veronica's mom needs help to award the contract of the land development to Fred Andrews, but Veronica refuses. This does nothing to stop Hermoine Lodge as she forges her daughter's signature and the contract goes to Fred Andrews.

The biggest development that happens is the burgeoning friendship between Jughead and Betty grows into something more, something new and something that I totally love!! Jughead kissed Betty and Betty responds!! There is a new romance in town!!

Oh on a side note, the show ends with a cut to Jughead's father's, FP, closet showing Jason's jacket hanging there!!!

Monday, 24 April 2017

DNA Heritage test kits

I've been thinking of doing this for a long time, and I am curious to find out which test is the best one. I'd really like to learn about my heritage, but I'd also like to learn about my genetic disposition, I think it would be so neat to learn those things.

I've had family members who have done these tests and there results have been interesting.  According to my Aunt's test we are 8% African American (my cousin and aunt both got similar results) so it would be interesting to find out more about my mom's side of the family and see what distant family trees pop up.

I know a lot about my genetics from my mom's family but I don't have a lot from my dad's but I definitely have questions.  My paternal grandfather passed away when my dad was young and we don't know his brothers family because there was some kind of feud.  But what did he pass away from? Was it a genetic predisposition? My father passed away at 63 he had some pre existing health concerns, but were his genetics at play?

So I think I am going to order one and maybe I will order one for Chandler and Leigham as well, and Adrian if he wants one.  Then in a few years we can get one for Theodore, but now to decide which one is the best one for us.

Have you ever done a DNA test to find out your ancestry and stuff?

Friday, 21 April 2017

Riverdale Episode 5 Friday Five Edition!

This is what I would call the truth episode.  Many, many truths are revealed to most characters, and the truths that aren't revealed are deducted out by our mystery solvers.

The first truth that comes out is that the Blossoms believe that someone in Riverdale killed Jason. So they invite the whole town to Jason's memorial before they bury him in the cemetery on their property.  Everyone comes and you see some heated exchanges between Mr. Cooper and Mr. Blossom and some disdainful looks rom Mrs. Blossom to Mrs. Lodge.  It looks like the founding families of this town have a lot of unresolved issues.  What issues could be brewing between all these families?

The second truth is that Jason was acting very strangely before he went missing. He was disengaging from his friends, refusing to return phone calls and then he started selling all his stuff.  Anything that had value he was selling. There were rumours that he was selling drugs, but these were neither confirmed or denied.  All this strange behaviour started happening when Jason started getting involved with Polly. What was Polly wanting or what were the two of them planning that had Jason behaving so strangely?

The third truth came when a box was unceremoniously deposited in the middle of Pop's Diner while Hermoine Lodge was working alone.  When the Lodge matriarch came to check on the box a snake was inside.  Looks like the South Side Serpents were not happy with her pay off and were letting her know this. Hermoine called Fred Andrews, seems there may have been some romantic interest between the two, but what will they do because they are both still married?  Why does Mary Andrews live in New York?

The forth truth that we find is that the Coopers and Blossoms had a Blood Feud dating back to Betty's Great Grandpa.  The maple business in Riverdale seems to be a booming enterprise and the Patriarch of the Blossom family murdered Betty's great grandpa and stole the business.  This is why the Coopers were so against Polly and Jason being together.  Polly was sent away after being hurt by Jason because she tried to kill herself, so obviously there are a lot of mental health issues in Polly's world.  Do those issues extend to Betty? Is the fact that they Coopers Blood Feud motive for murder to keep Jason and Polly apart forever?

The fifth truth, and a big bomb that ties into the forth truth, is that Polly and Jason were married. No one knew except Grandma Blossom.  She mistook Betty for Polly at the memorial service and asked to see the ring.  Consoling "Polly" for losing the love of her life.  Is this a modern day take on Romeo and Juliet?  What is going on in the town of Riverdale.

There were a lot of truths revealed, but as per usual, more questions came from the truths that came forth.  So what's in store for the next episodes.  Stay tuned.

*For those of you who read my blog and don't want Riverdale sorry for the multitude of posts on Riverdale lately as I try to catch up before the season finale!*

Thursday, 20 April 2017

Scrapbooking

So I LOVE pictures, I know you can't tell from this blog a lot of the times, but taking pictures, printing and framing and putting them in albums is something I absolutely love.  A few years ago I really got into scrapbooking and I was even doing digital scrapbooking which was much cleaner and easier to do with little ones, then the company I used went under and I sort of stopped.

Recently, I was invited to join a crop club (Scrapbooking Club), I was hesitant at first, because did I really want to get back into this cutting and pasting hobby.  The truth is yes I did, I have loved every minute of it, I finished my Disneyland Scrapbook album, I finished an album for my friend and I am currently working on my Wedding Album.  I am feeling so productive and my kids love looking through them so I know it was worth it, completely and utterly worth it to get back into.

This is a hobby that allows me to be creative which was one of my goals this year.  Find a hobby that allows me to be creative. I have to get working on my creativity, and really start plotting out my pages but I really think this will be a great little hobby for me.

Are you a pictures person? Or do you prefer to share memories in another way?

Wednesday, 19 April 2017

My first Lip dub

So I am new to being a Leadership Advisor at my school, and it's been an interesting experience. We've definitely had some rocky roads along the way but all in all it's a growing experience and I think next year it's going to be even better, but I will never forget the lessons I have learned.

The most recent lesson I have learned is that things that look easy and that people say are easy aren't actually that easy.

You look at lipdub videos online, here are a few that are really good.


They look simple, and in reality shooting them is probably the easiest part, because its a single take video, there's no editing and splicing and stuff, so once the video is taken all you have to do is put the sound on it and it's a go, what you don't see though, that's where it gets choppy.

Organizing a big group of at least a hundred people is problematic.  We had a leadership class that was about half of this number so you think each person brings one or two, should be no problem, yeah it doesn't work that way.  Seriously, and getting other groups to want to participate to commit to being apart of everything that is a lot of background work, and I would say you need to confirm the date at least 6 weeks in advance.

Practicing and finding time to practice something like this is another hurdle.  We had a few key players that were well versed in our route, but everyone else walked through it only today, so that was difficult.  Keeping key players in all areas where they were needed but then also getting them into areas where we could showcase them, that was something I wish I had mapped out better so that it didn't seem so disorganized.

Getting the music chosen and played through the school for the video was another hurdle we had to get past.  Finding away to put the music over the intercom would have been best or having been organized with a bluetooth speaker that could  have been attached to the camera people even better.  We made due with our blue tooth speaker and a person to carry it, but again something more set up would have been better.

Getting the word out there about the Lipdub more than was done would have been even better.  That was a definite failing in the Leadership class to get more of the school involved, being more insistent that this was an event of all events that people would regret not being apart of.  Definitely working our PR angle more is going to be a big undertaking in future Leadership events.

All in all I am happy to have done it and I have a HUGE idea for our next Lipdub if we do one!!

Tuesday, 18 April 2017

F*#$ing Perfect by Pink

I was out for a walk the other day, listening to my playlist when Pink's F*#$ing Perfect started playing on my headset.  I don't know why but I feel like this is the first time I have ever truly listened to this song.  I am a HUGE Pink fan, I think she is amazing and such a wonderful role model for young women, and I when I really listened to this song, this opinion was reinforced even more.

Has that ever happened for you?  You have a song that you listen to a lot and then one day you really hear the song, and the message in the song really resonates with your core beliefs?  It was such an ah-ha moment on that path as I was walking and I was like wow.

So here are some of the lyrics to the song and my thoughts on those lyrics:

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you are less than, less than f####' perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing
You're f$$$$' perfect to me

So after the intro that details the different times Pink felt pushed down or devalued, she states that she is still here, then she implores her listeners to not feel like they are anything less than perfect.  She wants them to know that being themselves is enough and they are perfect the way they are.

I find this interesting because even with the whole body image, and I know I am trying to lose weight and be better, but that doesn't mean I hate myself right now. If something happened today I wouldn't shame myself or think I was less of a person because I couldn't become more fit, I still love myself, but that is something I have gotten from maturing, not something young people have innately.  So you have to love yourself even if there are areas you want to improve because you are perfect just as you are in that exact moment.

You're so mean when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game

The second verse talks about the voice in our head, that voice that we let say all those mean things about us when we look in the mirror.  Wow has that voice been ignorant to me, and if that were someone outside of me, coming from another person, I would never talk to that person again, so why do I ever put up with myself talking that way about myself.  It's hard to get out of that self-loathing, it's hard to start to feel you are worthy of self-love, but the fact is you are and everyone deserves to have self-love that is all encompassing no matter what your outward appearance is.

Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don{t like my jeans; they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that
Why do I do that?

The third verse into the final chorus talks about how outside people criticize people all the time, and how we react and try to change ourselves to fit into a mould that they think we should fit into and not the one that is our authentic self.  And the questions why do we/ I do that? almost brought me to a stop yesterday because I didn't have answer.  Really, it just shouldn't matter what people think we should be because it takes away our authentic selves, but as teenagers we put so much value into what our friends think, and it's almost a mob mentality.  If all your friends like wide leg jeans but your preference is slim boot cuts, you will look out of place in the group.  And because we don't have the confidence at that age to just be who we are we listen to what everyone else says.  This isn't true for everyone but I would hazard a guess that it affects more than it doesn't.

So to all my readers, Love yourself, Like yourself, and be YOU, because you are exactly who you are supposed to be!!

Monday, 17 April 2017

Biking and Exercise Parks

 In trying to stay active and healthy with exercise I made it my goal to be active to some degree every day for 30 days. I have a workout plan that I am following that is a full body Bikini workout and some yoga that I am doing as well.  But some days you need to rest your muscles to prevent injury so I need other things to do!! Enter my beautiful and active children!!

One day when I was really dreading doing any kind of workout Leigham wanted to go for a bike ride. Usually he goes with his dad as I put Teddy to bed, but this night Teddy wanted Dad so I got to go on the Bike Ride!! We rode around our neighbourhood and headed to the Exercise park, which is one of Leigham's favourite parks to go to.
 I was able to get a 30 minute bike ride in as well as 15 minutes of circuits on the equipment on the park.  It was a moderate workout, but for me that's all I need sometimes. Just something so I am not being lazy, and as I do these little workouts more and more it's easier for them to become part of my routine.
 What are your go to exercises?  Where are your favourite places to workout?

Friday, 14 April 2017

Friday Five: 5 Exercise Routines I'm doing right now

I love Pinterest and if you check out my Pinterest account you will notice two things. I am not always on Pinterest but I got in waves and pin pin pin then nothing for months.  But I do have a lot of exercise routines that I use when I am working out at home.

Here are the current ones I am using at home:

1. Biking around my neighbourhood and too work. It is just over 5 kilometers to my school.  On the way there it's a slight incline then a lot of hills down into a final flat stretch.  The way home we bike up out of the river valley.. it's killer on the legs, but we've never done it before and we made it all the way without stopping and walking the bikes so I am going to call that a win

2. 12 Yoga poses to get a good stretch: I found this on pinterest and it really has no instructions so I am just going through the poses holding them for 5 deep slow breaths then repeating the sequence another time up to three times.  It's a great stretching routine and I really like that I get very relaxed afterwards.

3. Bikini Circuit from Sugar Pop: This one is killer, like my legs hurt, my arms hurt, my back hurts afterwards, but as I get through this one it's easier to do each time.  I just have to remember to turn on some music working out with the music is a little boring.

4. Ab workout: This is just a targeted workout, basic crunches, oblique crunches, frog crunches, leg lifts, v sits.  Do each 15 times then plank for as long as I can and repeat two more times.


5. Walking at work: I have a prep in the afternoon so those days I do not bike to work I am going to take some time in my prep to walk.  Right now 40 minutes gets me to the overpass at 67th street and back, so I am hoping I can pick up the pace and get further as I do this more frequently and even turn this walking into some running!

Thursday, 13 April 2017

Riverdale Episode 4

I LOVED that this episode revolved around the Drive In.  A nostalgic relic from the past that I still think most families enjoy partaking in.

Jughead is the main character of this story along with the South Side Serpents, and Archie and Miss Grundy.  Let's start with the south side Serpents.

The South Side Serpents are a biker gang in Riverdale.  The generally take over territory in the south area but they have been hanging out at the Drive In a lot. We find out the Hermoine Lodge has dealings with the Serpents for her husband, and that she has also given a bag of cash to the Mayor for her help in purchasing the Drive In property.  The South Side Serpents are hanging around the Drive In at the behest of Hiram Lodge to bring the property value of the Drive In down so he can purchase the land for a business deal.  It has worked and Lodge Industries or a private LLC that he owns is now the owner of the Drive In.  It is set to be demolished the next day and Juggie was not able to convince anyone otherwise.

Kevin Keller and his dad discuss his love life and how he is the only nice gay boy at Riverdale High School.  Kevin goes to the Drive In with Veronica,  but then he meets up with a boy and they have an intense make out session.  What's going to happen for these two, well who knows, Kevin's dad is the sheriff and the other boy is a member of the South Side Serpents....

As for Archie and Miss Grundy, well Betty put two and two together from the last episode that Archie was at SweetWater the same day as Miss Grundy and was likely with her. While Juggie is lamenting about the demise of the drive-in, Archie comes into Pops with his Dad and Miss Grundy so Betty asks to speak to him outside.  She confronts Archie who doesn't deny that he is in a relationship with Miss Grundy.  This sets Betty out to do some research, and we discover that the real Miss Grundy is an old lady who used to live in Riverdale but who has now passed away.

Who is this imposter?? Turns out her name is Jennifer Gibson and she has a gun in her car.  Betty and Veronica break into Miss Grundy's car then tell Archie what they found.  Archie then asks Miss Grundy about her past and she admits that she is using an assumed identity because she was in a abusive relationship and she is trying to stay away from him.  Betty records all she knows in her diary (Why she doesn't have a locked diary with her mother I have no idea?)

Enter Alice Cooper, and man this woman is just a bitch.  She finds Betty with Archie and Veronica and makes her leave.  Betty fights with her mom and tells her she isn't Polly and that Alice has to stop treating her this way.  Alice, suspecting something is up, snoops through Betty's room, finds Miss Grundy's gun and Betty's diary that outlines all that is going on with the kids.  Alice confronts Betty, tracks down Fred Andrews at the Drive In,  and they all go to find Miss Grundy.

Miss Grundy and Archie are at the school, about to embrace when the classroom door burst open and in struts self-righteous Alice Cooper, followed closely behind by confused Fred and ashamed Betty. The whole sordid affair comes out and Alice threatens Archie and Miss Grundy.  Betty finally steps up and tells Alice to stop otherwise she will tell everyone she made it all up and then everyone will think she finally lost it too, and that Crazy does run in the Cooper family.  Alice backs down after Miss Grundy agrees to tenure her resignation and leave town.  Archie is upset but Miss Grundy agrees and leaves the room.

Miss Grundy, I get the feeling that she is actually  a predator.  She looks all innocent and sweet, but she approached Archie that summer day slowing her car down as he was walking by, and dropping her heart shaped glasses to make eye contact.  And she does it again to another guy as she is leaving town, so was she in love with Archie as she claimed or was she taking advantage of him??

Now onto Juggie, who I love!! He is so passionate about the Drive In because this is where he works.  He tries to ask Fred Andrews not to demolish the drive in, but Fred says he can't put it off, it's work, to which Juggie replies, well you already put one Jones out of work and now you will put another.  WHAT?? Apparently, Fred Andrews is the reason Forsyth P Jones II is not working, but we haven't even met Juggie's parents.  Juggie does bring up his sister but we haven't met her yet either.

Juggie plays the final show at the Drive In, and the episodes ends with Juggie clean up the projector room.  What we see is that a cot is set up with a hot plate and Juggie has a picture of him and Jellybean on the wall.  Seems that Juggie may have been living there for sometime.  When Juggie leaves the projector building her spray paints Jughead was Here on the wall.  The South Side Serpent, that took the money for Hermoine Lodge approaches Juggie, they have a short talk, and it is confirmed by the South Side Serpent that Juggie has been living there.  Juggie tells the South Side Serpent he's not sure where he will live now but that he will figure it out, he always does and then calls him Dad.  DAD!?!?!?! This gang member is Juggie's father, this is so out of character, but so is Juggie being homeless.

What's in store for us in episode 5?

Wednesday, 12 April 2017

Western Development Museum: Saskatoon

Last time we were in Saskatoon I took the boys to the Western Development Museum.  I hadn't been to the Western Development Museum since I can't even remember if I've gone since I became an adult.  So the boys and I head off to see Boomtown.
There are so many fun little things to see, Leigham had been here about a year ago so he remembered a lot of what we saw.  Theodore had been too, but he still enjoyed walking through all the exhibits.  I explained what I could and we listened to the different sound clips.  I think the boys favourite was the North West Royal Mounted Police room.  We listened to all the sound clips there.


 Leigham liked to show off his muscles and how strong he was, he figured he could work in the stable or blacksmith shop.
 We really liked the train too, it was huge! I mean it's probably regular size but it seems huge.  They also have model trains and the boys loved those, Theodore didn't want to leave we had to haul him away while he had a tantrum.
The other two exhibits we saw were the Quantum Exhibit and Game Changers exhibit.  These aren't always there but the kids really enjoyed them and I got to play some of the classic video games it was a lot of fun.  

I loved going there and I didn't know that if you buy a pass for one day it's good for two, which is kind of neat, because then you can go back. So next time we go to Saskatoon we will make another stop here.

Tuesday, 11 April 2017

Drowning Lessons

I am a firm believer that everyone should know how to swim so I make my boys take swimming lessons.

Chandler was a bit of fish and he did so well growing up.  At one point I thought he might be a life guard but then we got behind on lessons and that never happened.  He did finish up to level 10 just didn't got for his Bronze Cross and stuff. I don't worry about him and water.

Leigham and Teddy, though, well that's a different story.  I take them swimming and Teddy loves the water, Leigham was more like my brother and would wear a life jacket to play on the beach in case someone splashed him.

So for three years Leigham has been in swimming lessons and he's finally coming along, he's still scared to put his face in sometime but since he's had goggles he's improved immensely.  He struggles with his back float and back glide, my brother did too, and if you ask my brother it's because they are too dense with muscle mass.  Leigham is now taking Level 2 for the third time and I am considering doing private lessons, but they are just so expensive.

Now Teddy who LOVES the water, and has always loved the water, at lessons was this whole other child. If you were to see him at his lessons there is a period of time where he behaves as if I am trying to drown him.  He claws at my bathing suit, screams in my deaf ear, and carries on and on.  It's almost embarrassing, then all of sudden we do an activity he likes and Mr. Fish appears.  I just don't get it!

We finished our first set of lessons and now Teddy will take un-parented lessons. I'm going to pay to swim while he is in lessons just in case he throws up a fuss, and if he doesn't then I at least get a chance to do some swimming workouts.  I know once they get it, once it clicks everything will be fine, and once Leigham learns he can go swimming with his friends at 8 or 9 without me having to hover I am sure he will take off like a rocket.  For now we just keep swimming, just keep swimming.