Tuesday, 31 May 2016

Starting out...

It's going to take some work, but I think I can, I know I can do this!!

I woke up today and I meditated, I woke up today meditated and did YOGA!!! Whooohooo!!!!

I am really loving Yoga with Adrienne its a nice relaxing way to start my yoga practice and get my butt in gear.

I then worked all day but knew I had a soccer game I had to go to that evening.  It was up on the North end of town and really not too far from my house so I decided to be extra healthy and bike there.

Now I used to love biking, I would bike everywhere as a kid.  It was great! And then I had kids and I am terrified of biking with a baby seat on the back and I've never had a bike trailer so for many years we did not bike.  About four years ago my husband bought me a bike for Mother's day, it's a fun cruiser bike and I love it!! I rode it all of four times, and I have not ridden in almost 3 years.

Things you forget when you haven't ridden a bike in FOREVER...... those muscles in the inside of the thighs those babies do not enjoy having to work after so long.  Oh and those core muscles that are hidden under the baby weight, yeah they are still there, but very unimpressed with you!! I didn't realize how active your core muscles are when you are biking, but all the balancing and stuff I mean yeah and the pedalling... pedalling, pedalling, pedalling... you know when your trainer makes you do those bicycle crunches, well they are called bicycle crunches for a reason!!

So in total I biked 5 km and played 45 minutes of soccer.  Needless to say I am exhausted and I can already feel the protest of muscles happening.  Epsom salt bath here I come!!!

Ok have a great night!! Let's hope I keep motivated like this, but maybe not this intensely!!

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Monday, 30 May 2016

I suck.... but I'm going to be better

For my entire life I've been very good at making plans, starting plans and being able to see the big picture or the long term goal.  I just suck at following through.

I tell myself it is because I have poor self control, poor discipline and I lack motivation to keep working at a goal. 

What horrible negative self talk that is?  It's disgusting and when I see it written down I'm so confused because that is not who I am that person who makes excuses for why I am in the same place I was, the same place I wish to escape from.  That's not me!!!

It's a trap, I mean this self fulfilling prophecy I am creating in my head, it's a trap.  But what am I afraid of?  I think I'm afraid of success.... that is so dumb!! I'm afraid to succeed at my goals, to show everyone exactly what I can accomplish when I put my mind to it.  

For all my life I've watched the story of my family struggle in poverty, struggle with weight issues, struggle with labels, where we weren't supposed to succeed.  We were poor, we lacked morals, we couldn't possibly succeed and become successful.  But that's all wrong!

I mean I've made life harder for myself, I had a child very young, but I put myself through University, I have a 17 year old who is now a wonderful example of a well adjusted teen, I am in a committed relationship that's not always sunshine and roses but it works for us.  But I am successful in that aspect.  

I have two more children that are happy, healthy and compassionate.  I own my own house. I have a car.  

In so many ways I am successful, yet in a few key ways I feel like I am failing not only myself, but my family. I am not being the role model my children need. This is supposed to be the year of me, the year I focus on making me the best me I can be, and yet I'm squandering it away not doing those things I know will help boost my self confidence and self esteem.  That will lead me to being the best version of myself a version of myself that others see and that I will recognize each time I look in the mirror!

Yet deep down the thought of monetary success scares me. I have the ability and tools to be making more money and yet I avoid those tasks like a plague. WHY DO I DO THAT!!???

I say I am going to blog every day and I am good for two days then I just go to bed without following through.... (so dumb). It's hard to get readers if my posts are so varied and infrequent.  I also said I was going to do yoga everyday.... ahahaha  yeah that didn't happen, and I don't know why not because I actually really do enjoy yoga.  

I'm going to start vlogging as well on my youtube channel for this blog. It will be my mini testimonials and hopefully that will increase my readership and viewership. But then it might help me a bit for posting blogs that correlate to my videos and vice versa!

Ok I have to sign off now, it's late I need sleep and I'm going to try to wake up to do a yoga routine before I get ready to leave my house for work!!

Monday, 23 May 2016

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My first video on my new youtube channel!!
Watch for more and better ones to be coming soon!!

Wednesday, 4 May 2016

May 3 day 3

So I didn't quite get this done last night. I was so tired and really stressed out about the fires. The fires aren't actually affecting me, I'm in no personal danger. But it's so sad to think of all those people losing their homes and being separated from their friends and families not knowing. 

I took my students for multiple walks yesterday to get my steps and stuff in! The heat is decidedly dangerous for my physical activity desires but my students enjoy taking phys breaks so we walk. 

Anyways, gotta get ready for school so this post is short but I'm trying to stay on top of this goal. Building it into the schedule!! 

Monday, 2 May 2016

May 2 day two

Well this day felt much less productive then yesterday!!

My whole plan to bike to work, yeah, that got shot out the window, stupid flat tires!!

Then well work was work, it was there we did it, the kids did the work and we made it through!

Now I am home, after a lovely visit with my best friend!! I feel like my family and I need a sit down meeting, we just need to all be in the same room and talk for bit about what needs to happen in our home while things are the way they are.

I'm rambling, no physical activity today as it became a rest day, but we will get onto it tomorrow again!

But two blogs done so there is that!!

Chat later everyone!!

Sunday, 1 May 2016

May one day one

Oh man holding to this commitment is going to harder than I thought, mostly because it is going to be tough breaking my unmotivating habits.  Television, I am talking to you!!

But I'm doing it now, and yes Chicago Fire Is playing on the background, so this five minute post may take longer than the five minutes because the excitement of the show is drawing my attention.

So this morning I woke up with only the thought that I had to go into work to get my lessons planned for the next week.  See I'm teaching again and teachers work on weekends.  I try to do it as little and I frequently as possible but it's something that has to happen.  

My wonderful husband got up with the kids and had breakfast ready when I rolled out of bed. He can be such a sweetheart sometimes, most of the time.  So after a breakfast of elk sausage and farm eggs I packed up my bag and headed to school.

I got right to work at school, Faith Hill Greatest Hits playing on my iPhone.  I worked for eighty minutes and then I strapped on my running gear (earphones, etc) and headed out the door.  I ran for five kilometres.  It was not my best run, but it wasn't my worst, and I can only get bette from here on out.

While I was running I kept thinking that I need to do this more.  I love running, it's just me and the pavement, not necessarily going anywhere in particular but just trying to cover the designated distance.  At 2.3 km my calves started to seize up.  I tried to stop to stretch them out but that just hurt more so I pushed through and they loosened up.  Around then I was thinking I must be crazy to be doing this running nonsense and I should never do this again.  Then around 4 km I was like nope this is great, keep going you've got this! And I did!! Kilometres 3 and 4 were the worst but kilometre 5 was a definite improvement.

After my run I worked for another 90 minutes and I feel comfortable going into next week, that even though it's new and we've not done this before, I think it's going to be great and the kids are going to love it!

 Also finished my grocery shopping and got all my lunches packed for the week. Lil man and I even took a drive back to the school to put my food in the fridge.  

I also do thirty minutes of yoga, and my body was ever so thankful! It was a great day, 

So we've started out with a bang, hopefully I can keep the momentum going and then get trained and healthy for the rest of my life!!