Friday, 30 May 2014

State of the union End of May!!

State of the Union May 30, 2014
             In                                       Out

Healthy Eating                     snacking on junk food
30 Day Squat Challenge

30 Day Butt Challenge           
 30 days of watching TV

30 Day crunch Challenge

Loving my body                 focusing on the number on the scale (211)
Enjoying my time with my boys     stressing about what I can't control

So I have started all three of these 30 day challenges. I'm not looking forward to day 30 of any of these challenges but I figure it's a work in progress and I can get there!! If nothing else it will get me active and starting to do something.  As for eating healthy, it's happening I am buying the snacks that are healthy and avoiding those snacks that are not appropriate. Still going to have days when I can indulge in sweet treats but won't deprive myself if a craving comes up and I can't figure out another option.  I think these three challenges will be a good start to my first six weeks of getting fitter and I will update more as time passes.

Thanks for reading, please leave a comment if you'd like!!

Thursday, 29 May 2014

Choosing a name for Baby T

His arrival was much anticipated!! It was a month prior to him finally arriving that we first thought he would make his entrance, but he kept us waiting, past the first due date, past the second due date all the way to the third predicted due date.
 (I'll be honest I don't understand due dates, I figured baby would arrive May 11, dating ultrasound said the 9th and the 20 week ultra sound said the 15th,
I don't understand how they can all be different but they were and he waited until the last due date on the list to make his arrival)

While we waited for Baby T to arrive we had to choose a name.  Now this is a bit of a funny story, at least I find it humorous.  My husband works away and from past experience, when Lil Man was born, he's not really great at picking names, I basically have to give him options and he'll then help me decide from that point.  So I sent hubby a text with a name and I was in love with the name it was T. Jenson, and I was convinced we would call the baby TJ.
An hour went by, then two, then it was the next day and then two days later and he did not respond to the text, so I figured he didn't like the name.  With a huge sigh, I shelved the name and opened my baby name book and websites to find another unique boy name.  This is always so difficult picking a name, but I was determined, as time went on I wasn't as sold on Jenson as a middle name. * I was picking Jenson to have my name tied to one of my kids names, and also because my best friend and I had made a deal when her second child was born that the middle name would be Jenelle, a combination of our two names, but since I wasn't having  girl I was trying to find another option*   I felt that Jenson might not be the best name and I started considering different possible family names that might be acceptable for middle names.  My hubby's middle name is Leslie, and I have an uncle named Leslie and my best friends daughter's other middle name is Leslie, so I started playing with name combinations that included Leslie, but because I am all about tying names together I went for an alternate spelling should we choose that name for this baby's second name.  So I came up with a  list of possible first names that I felt were good suggestions to talk with hubby about, in this list was Corbin, Hayden, Corwyn, and a name that started with B but I discarded that name quickly, and obviously I didn't like it that much because as I write this I cannot remember it.  I ended up scratching Hayden off the list since my sister's best friend has a child named Hayden, it was too close to want to go with that name.  So I gave my new list to my husband, he looked at it and then he says, 'Well I liked that first suggestion you sent me a month ago.'
WHAT?!?!?! Are you kidding me?? but no he wasn't kidding me he just neglected to tell me that he thought the first suggestion was a good suggestion. At the end of the day we decided that the baby would have Leslie for a middle name, but with the alternate spelling and that when the baby was born and we got a look at him, we would decide at that point what his name should be.  It was between T and Corbin/ Corwyn.

* A little side note, I love my babies name but I am not sharing it on these public sites so as to give him some anonymity I understand that it can be frustrating but that is what it is.*

The only person I told our choices of names too was my sister.  When I first told her she gave me a mixed response.  She took a sharp breath in and then our conversation ended shortly afterwards.  It was so strange.  I found out after Baby T was born that she had wanted to name her baby T if her baby was a boy, but in all the years she was considering this she never told me, she had only told her hubby.  If she had told me I would have chosen a different name, but there is no going back now as Baby T fits his name perfectly!!

Baby T is coming into this crazy family as the third boy.  He's got two amazing older brothers, a wonderful father and some very large pets!!
We couldn't be happier with this little bundle who is just a darling and everything I could have hoped for!! He looks just like his middle brother Lil Man, but there are some differences that maybe only a mother will notice, but I'm pretty sure my two youngest boys will be carbon copies of each other as they grow!!

Wednesday, 28 May 2014

updating a dresser change table

So I completed my first do it yourself project.... ok maybe not my first, but the first one this year.
I took an old change table dresser and painted it.  I wanted to do something just for Baby T, because, well let's be honest, Baby T is the third boy and is going to be living in the land of hand me downs, so he needed something that was just his, which he got when I redid this dresser.

I was thinking of doing an ombre look for the dresser but then I didn't want to buy a lot of different paints so I went with two colours.  A really dark blue for the drawers and door and then a light blue for the rest.  It was a lot of work but also a lot of fun. Here are some pictures from the project.

started out with a  pine look

gave the drawers a quick sanding to help keep the paint on

blueberry for the drawers

It should have only been a day project, but I took a week to complete this project. More because I took 5 days off before working on the project against I ended up only doing two of the drawers the first day and the rest of the dresser the next weekend. The first two drawers were painted with a brush and the rest I used small rollers.  You can't really tell the difference unless you look really closely. In the pictures because they are after the first coat you can tell the difference, but once the second coat was applied it was not noticeable unless you were looking for the imperfections.

Thankfully, we finally had some nice weather so I was able to work outside.  I was still pregnant so I did not want to be painting inside, and I am a messy painter so I should not be allowed to paint indoors, I always make mess!!  I am very happy with how the dresser ended up and because we are reusing the Finding Nemo decorations from Lil Man's nursery the dresser fits right in. But it will be easy to update to a spider man dresser when Baby T gets a bit bigger because of the colour scheme!!

Tuesday, 27 May 2014

My body Image

To be perfectly honest, I've always had issues with my body image. Not as bad as some people, I've never suffered from anorexia or bulimia, but there has always been a love hate relationship with my body.  I think most people go through this, they look in the mirror or see pictures of themselves and automatically start dissecting what they don't like about their body.     I've had these thoughts and more it's unfortunately not the best mind set to have, it's very discouraging always focusing on the negative aspects of ones body image.

And let's be honest many of the issues people have with their body come from genetics versus the image of beauty perpetrated by the media.  There is no fighting genetics and the amount of airbrushing that happens within the pages of the glossy magazines makes those body images unattainable.  I've started looking at the magazines as really great comics, at least the pictures, because they just aren't real and quite frankly my body type will not allow me to look like those starlets that grace the covers of these magazines.  They are either too thin with very few curves or have more curves in the back then I have ever been blessed with (genetics, I mean I was born and my father called me Cracker ass, because my ass was flat, it didn't have that cute baby bump).

The reality of things is I am not completely satisfied with the state of my body, but I just had a baby, and I am not complete unhappy with my body.
 I would like to improve the shape of my body in key areas, my stomach, thighs, gluteus maximus, and arms. It's a whole body makeover really.  I still feel pretty, I still feel like I am a good person, and if someone is not going to like me based on my looks alone I guess I don't want to have to deal with that person anyways.  But I do want to become more fit, I do want to have more energy for chasing my kids, I do want to promote a healthy lifestyle for them, I want to show them that being active is an important part of growing up through all stages of life, I want to give my kids their best chance at a long healthy life because I teach them the tools through role modelling and speaking while they are young.  The perk will be me fitting into my size 10 or size 8 clothes again and feeling great about how I look when I walk down the street.

State of the union May 27, 2014
Eating: Healthy choices but not putting in restrictions, only eat when hungry
Exercising: walking each day and home exercise program of yoga
Weight: 215 lbs (how nerve wracking is this to actually post this)
Measurements: Haven't done these yet, but will do chest, two waists and thigh and calves
Starting Picture:
Goal Outfit for summer Picture (six weeks from now):

He'll get bigger and I'll get more fit!!

Monday, 26 May 2014

The past year...

lil man and me

For the past year, and quite literally, I have been focused on increasing the size of my family.  After my sisters wedding in Vegas, we decided it would be a great time to become pregnant again.  So we began actively trying.  The journey to having a third child was paved with many hurdles that we had to compensate for that I had never faced before.

Tamara and I at Fifth Avenue Collection 25 Anniversary seminar

The timing of getting pregnant was our first hurdle.  I'd never had difficulty before, but to be honest I had never really tried to get pregnant before based on my cycle, I just figured that is what happened with the first two pregnancies.  The hurdles with this one weren't necessarily with my cycle but my husband began to work away from home so he was gone for long periods of time. It was stressful because I did have a time frame for when I wanted to be pregnant by so that I could have my baby by a certain date.  It was the control freak in me that caused the stress.  As each month passed and my menstrual cycle started I was discouraged and a little heartbroken.  I also had one either false positive or a miscarriage in June or July.  But after 3 months, which really isn't that long, I got a positive pregnancy test and so began my journey to my third child.
my two handsome boys!!

It's fair to say that having a girl was a desire for myself as I have two very handsome boys.  In all honesty though I wasn't too particular, as long as the child was healthy I would be happy boy or girl.  
So then it was the waiting game to find out what the baby was going to be... and yes I am one of those people that likes to find out what the baby is prior to it being born I like to be prepared (control freak thing again).

hubby and I in Cancun

Health issues became the bane of my existence through this pregnancy. And absolutely weird health things came up.  I mean it may have something to do with my age (I'm not old but I'm older than I was when I had my first child) or it was just something to do with this cute baby, who knows but all my pregnancies have been very different.  The first issue I had was with my back.  I threw it out by turning to pour milk into cereal for Lil Man, and something just pinched.  I went upstairs to rest to let it release but it just got worse and worse, then I had to go to the hospital via ambulance.  Not that they did anything for me, but man was I ever in pain.  I couldn't walk for a week, or I could walk but most of the time I was crawling around.  Thankfully, my oldest is very helpful and he stayed home to take care of me and the youngest went to Grandma and Papa's for a few nights which made things much better but man that was a painful experience.  The next health issue that came up was a panic attack.  I was sitting at work one day doing something with my email, and the IT guy was in helping me out when all of a sudden my heart started racing and I was in a cold sweat.  My heart was beating so fast that I could see my heart beating through my chest. I tried to just sit back and calm down but nothing was working so I went to the hospital.  My heart was racing at 188 beats per minute, but everything else was fine.  It was absolutely crazy and then a couple hours later it passed and I have not had another experience.  The final thing is something I am still trying to get fixed up, but in March I got really sick, my ear got plugged and I had a bad case of vertigo. It was so bad I was in the hospital twice to be hooked up to IV because I was vomiting all the time.  It was not a good time, and my ear is still plugged. I am working backwards and i can feel the ear unplugging a little each day but it's making me dizzy and nauseous.  I guess that wasn't the last thing, the last thing was my blood pressure it got high and because it was high I was induced, but as soon as baby was born my blood pressure went back to being perfect.

baby's first photo
Another hurdle was the cooperation of this third baby.  Third baby was a little turkey, first third baby did not cooperate at the first ultrasound and we didn't find out the sex of the baby at 20 weeks.  So then we had to wait until 32 weeks to ascertain that the baby was a boy.  I now have three beautiful boys that are going to spoil and protect their mom!! I do have two momma's boys and I am pretty sure this third will be a momma's boy as well.  

I've now been home for 10 days with a beautiful, charming, perfect baby boy! He's a great baby and I am absolutely smitten with him.  I can't imagine my life without him and it truly feels like our family is now complete!! I know some people in my life think I'll be having another baby in a couple years, but I am done, unless by some miracle of God's intervention this is my family. My hubby, myself and the three boys!!  I'll let my boys have girls that I can spoil and turn into shopping buddies!!

Thursday, 1 May 2014

First day of my last maternity leave

Well today marks the first day of my last maternity leave.  What kept me up last night, thoughts of work and did I let my replacement know this or that.  I had a little conversation with myself as I got up, put those thoughts into a bubble and blew them away.  I'm sure I left her much more prepared than I was going into the role, but it is very difficult to prepare for everything while you are still working the day to day of the job.

My next focus needs to be keeping Lil man busy without letting him watch television all day. I'm not against television, but it's what I feel should be a last option especially since he has so many toys and likes to be outside so much.  I will need to print off some calendars and some schedules for him so that he knows what to expect each day, and then we will have good days.  And maybe he will get some extra learning in as well.

I will be scouring Pinterest and other blogging sites to help set up our days so we have things to do, and when we need down time that's when books and television can come into play.  It's a new adventure for this momma.

For today though we will be going to school this morning, I'll do a little shopping, then we are going on a picnic with some friends and will be playing at the park.  Time to get going to school.