Life's Whirlwind Adventures

I have been doing yoga pretty consistently for the last few months.  I am a huge fan of Yoga with Adrienne , but I am determined to master a few yoga poses by the end of the summer. 1. Sitting Pigeon: I love the stretch I get with this pose, but the balance and core strength you need to ensure you are doing it properly, well I have a long way to go. 2. Downward Facing Dog: I am constantly in this pose in my practice but my heels do not touch the ground so that is what I want to get better at. 3.Tree Pose: This is an amazing balancing pose that I really want to get better at, usually I am just hovering my toes off the ground and on a good day I can get them to my shin so I'd love to get them to my thigh. 4. Warrior two: I love this pose but feel a bit week in the legs when I am trying to sustain this pose. 5. Warrior three: Yeah this isn't a pose I can do with any kind of success yet, so definitely have to work on this one!

For my entire life I've been very good at making plans, starting plans and being able to see the big picture or the long term goal.  I just suck at following through. I tell myself it is because I have poor self control, poor discipline and I lack motivation to keep working at a goal.  What horrible negative self talk that is?  It's disgusting and when I see it written down I'm so confused because that is not who I am that person who makes excuses for why I am in the same place I was, the same place I wish to escape from.  That's not me!!! It's a trap, I mean this self fulfilling prophecy I am creating in my head, it's a trap.  But what am I afraid of?  I think I'm afraid of success.... that is so dumb!! I'm afraid to succeed at my goals, to show everyone exactly what I can accomplish when I put my mind to it.   For all my life I've watched the story of my family struggle in poverty, struggle with weight issues, struggle with labels, ...